anyways, i feel that this depression soother has been my one pitfall within this whole "commit to fit" ordeal. i've been pretty much consistent with my working out and dieting routine, of course with missteps here and there. but now, i'm attempting to get back into my "hardcore" regimen, with brand new workouts and tweaking my diet to revitalize my body. it came to a point where everything was routine, monotonous. and so far, i've seen the results...
but damn damn damn! ice cream pops up like a pimple. it has gotten so bad where after the gym, or whatever workout, i'm convincing myself to not stop for it. seriously, i'm in the car talking to myself;
"c'mon man, you know you want it. you know how good it is to have it just melt in your mouth. think of the good times dude. like when you were a kid, flaggin down the ice cream truck everyday. a quarter donut (or two) and two strawberry shortcakes. good humor brand. yeaaaaa. reminisce."
"man, back up off me! i just got done workin' out! you know you can't just go put it right back on! but i'm not gonna lie. that does sound good right about now..."
then i end up calling kyle, asking him if he "needs" me to stop anywhere on my way home, when in all actuality, i really want him to say yes to use that as an excuse to get what i want. i mean, i'm already in walgreens, in the freezer section. i should gon' head and get me some ice cream.
and then i stand in front of the section and stare, gawking at options, when i know i'm going to end up with either a cookie sandwich, strawberry shortcake or a klondike bar. whatever i get, it has no chance of survival once i get in that car! let's just say tinted windows are one of the best inventions ever.
so i'm challenging myself. a month without ice cream. this should be easy right? i've done almost a year and a half without krispy kreme before. at least six months of no fast food (specifically mcd's and bk). and other challenges to myself. but this will by far be the toughest yet. and i'm doing it during the roughest part of the year, holiday season. but i'm going to be smart about the start date. I know within the next couple of weeks or so, i'm going to be getting the rest of my wisdom teeth removed... for reals for reals this time though. so i have to choose a date after that. but let's just use monday, october 19th as the preliminary start date.
stay tuned!
love.peace.ekwelity
